.Follow Your Heart.

Follow your heart. That's what everyone tells you....that sometimes you have to trust your gut and know you're going to end up somewhere amazing. I have spent the last two months going through background checks, financial checks, and every other kind of check to go through the adoption process. It has been a huge decision and one I haven't taken lightly...I fully understand it is a LOT of work....and that it is usually why it requires two people to do it....but I also know I have a lot of help....and a lot of determination and a whole lot of love to give. It's one of those things that I was waiting for "a sign" for....and funny, it was under my nose all along.

Three weeks before Chris died I purchased baby announcements because we were trying to have a baby and these were on clearance and well, I loved them....so I bought them. Today, I was rummaging through this closet looking for something completely unrelated and found them--after they had been buried for a year....and the sample invitation was a birth announcement that said "The Wallentons announce (insert name here) adopted into love on (insert specifics here)" All along, my sign stood next to me, under my nose, and all around me.

Sure, I'm pretty nervous and even a little scared but I also know that I'm not alone and that my heart has lead me here with a clear purpose....and that I will give a child a wonderful, loving, stable home that is filled with new adventures and lots of learning experiences. People will obviously judge this decision and go ahead....I have no one to prove except myself and this little one who has no idea how much love I have for him/her already.

I am excited and I have done my research and I have spent the last two months weighing all the pros and cons and, for me, this is going to be one of the best, life changing decisions I ever make. Best of all, I think Chris would be pretty proud. In fact, I'm sure he's already got one hand picked and waiting for me....and I can't wait.