fight.

what a whirlwind of a week.....
it's been 7 days since i was here last.....if i'm being entirely honest, that was too long.
i've been fighting the good fight...battling through busy days and so many things happening. here are the upsides....
i spent another weekend in chicago.
i made it through some of the busiest and full days ever.
little logan christopher was born and my heart swelled.
i talked about my feelings and reminded myself that it is always best to be honest and truthful.
and then....in the middle of all of that....i found parts of myself unsettled, reeling and unsure.

it's amazing...it always hits me at the worst times. i find that when i am in the middle of the proverbial shit storm is when i'm battling my own heart.....
but i'm better at coping than i've ever been.
i'm better at dealing than i've ever been is really what it is.
and i'm working on myself and my heart. every day.

because, really, we are the sum of the choices we make....our thoughts, actions and words are all coming from somewhere so i'm trying so hard to be more aware of the many ways i am learning to live through it and not just get through it.

i'm learning that i'm fighting.

for every silver lining, good day, and happy ending that i pray comes my way.

that's all for now....so many other words on this heart but, for tonight, this is enough.