i think i can

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check out the new blog template....it's fresh and pretty.....fun pattern and clean lines--my favorite. i'm pretty excited about it...which is good because lately i haven't had much time to be excited about anything.

i'm trying to master the art of balance. i've determined i'm less than adequate at figuring it out. lately i've been exhausted, overworked and feeling a bit numb. the same things over and over and i'm having a hard time getting excited about anything. on top of that, we had one hell of a hail storm a few weeks ago and finding time to deal with needing a new roof was not in the plans. additionally, my car has a slew of damage and i'm finding that dealing with contractors has got to be up there on my least favorite things to do list.

i have been struggling with focus lately. so many balls in the air doesn't leave much room for error but it also doesn't leave enough time to devote to just one thing at a time. i feel like i'm constantly trying to find an extra five minutes and hitting the snooze button just a little too much lately. i know they say there are worse things and i realize i'm in my busy season....but i'm just tired...and i need a recharge.

i've been looking at a london vacation in spring and trying to free up some time in my schedule to allow an actual break. no cell phone. no computer. no editing. no work. just a good and solid reset.

i've also still been experiencing some strange signs but mostly i'm just taking them as reminders of how brave i was.....and how i overcame the fear i had built inside of myself. for that, i am beyond thankful.

and i'm also even a little glad summer is half way through......i'm ready for some cool air again (105 with the heat index this week) and I miss my sweaters and the crisp fall air. I wish fall lasted longer...it's my most favorite......so I'm hopeful I can find an island someday where I can wear sweaters and flip flops and make a fire in the evening.

only a few short months until i head to aspen for a destination wedding with my j. i'm pretty excited about that. she has been truly the best partner and friend i could have asked for as both a photographer and a human being. we found a pretty amazing studio space over the weekend....and it's way over priced but i'm still hopeful that we can make it work. it was amazing....my dreams at arms length instead of so far away....and beyond amazing that i found something like that in little old manitowoc, wi.

so, i'm hopeful. i can see the light at the end of the tunnel and i'm still on the tracks.....i'm just praying i don't fall off....or drop a ball....because while i can juggle with the best of them, i sure am getting tired.