.Observations.

There are no do-overs in life....for me, only in mini-golf and even then, they're usually pointless....but why do we often choose to do things as if we have a do-over in store somewhere and can pull it out when necessary? I don't understand it. People get hurt and we rely on apologies and forgiveness and while both of those are very important, why not just do the right thing to begin with? I understand that people will always get hurt, often unintentionally, but it's the intentional decisions that make me question people and their motives.

I guess that's how people get cynical....because we get burned one too many times....because hearts get broken and people's tolerance shattered.....because we begin to actually believe we really are better off alone.....but who wants to be alone? No one. Then we become bitter. It's a vicious cycle really....and all because, sometimes, people don't say what they mean because they don't want to hurt someone else....and instead, people get trampled on and run over and sometimes you don't come out of it the same....sometimes it just hurts.

I've seen it happen a lot....experienced it myself a few times too. No one is perfect and we all make mistakes....I guess I just wish people were more true to themselves....and less worried about how everyone will see them. I need to work on this myself but I think if we tried harder at this, everything else might fall into place. It's funny though, we keep on doing the same things, often hoping they're working and even the people closest to us have a hard time telling us how it is....I guess I'm a believer that if I love you enough, then you deserve to know how you're treating yourself and others....not everyone appreciates this....in fact, there are few people who want you to dig deep enough to move past the surface and tell you how it is. Maybe that's why I've lost some friends....because honesty, as much as everyone wants it, isn't as appreciated as a sugarcoated compliment.

I'm not sure what made me think of all of this today....just that I'm a good observer and, lately, a better listener. I've seen the way people treat each other and it could be better. I've been this person at times in my life....but I'm thankful I'm not her anymore. I'm not getting any kind of a do-over....so I'm going to make the best of what I've got right now.