It's been a while since I've been here...partly on purpose...mostly on account of keeping myself distracted and busy....but, none the less, here I am again...seeking comfort and relief in on this web page where I've watched myself live and grow.
I was able to be away for a little while...and vacations are always very good for me....gives me room to breathe, to back up and see the world in a different light....but the difficult part is the putting into action of all the things I've decided and relationships I've reprioritized.....or, so I thought I had. I have the hardest time with knowing when it's time to walk away. I never want to give up on anyone...but I also can't continue to be taken advantage of....and while everything is give and take, often I find myself giving and giving and giving.....one way street relationships are just not what I need in my life....but the disconnecting and the fully letting go are much easier said than done.
In the end, it should be about the people who have always been there....but it's easy to take the best thing for right now...to go to the temptation..and to not know what you've got until it's gone.
It's easy to take for granted what you have because you don't realize that tomorrow it might not be there....but it is true....tomorrow does not come for everyone. I know that better than most....but most people find out too late....and when they have, there is no turning back....no second chances....just faith and hope that soon enough they will begin to realize how blessed and lucky they are. People like me don't come around every day....and sometimes we lose sight of the big picture....but that picture is there for a reason...for perspective....for boundaries....and to pull us back when we've gotten in too deep.....so, for tonight, I'm going toward the shallow waters.....giving myself room to breathe....for now.
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