focus.

i've been fighting a pretty bad headache for most of the afternoon and evening. maybe it's exhaustion or the sign of stress creeping in but i hate these hours....because they are exhausting. i'm also fairly certain that blogging my little heart out isn't going to do a thing for this head of mine but it will do something for me and sometimes it's a trade off.

i've had a lot of full weeks lately....and while i love them, i worry about my time management and where it all goes. i find myself worried and unsure about how i'm going to balance my life when summer comes and is busier. how on earth will i manage time between the clinic and my business....

and, in those moments, i remember that i do it. every year. and i can do this. because i'm supported and loved. but as i stare at the final scans from one wedding and i know i have to start another, i feel my anxiety kicking in....and i have no idea what to do with it. 

so i just keep swimming....because the days come and go too quickly and all of this energy that i spend trying to figure it out really doesn't work....at some point you just learn to be a doer....and find your time and heart are hopefully split in the right places. 

prioritizing. sometimes it really is a numbers game. 

and sometimes you find yourself reprioritizing. 

because, when you get caught up in everything, chaos happens and when you're not looking some of your priorities get thrown around and before you know it, you're just juggling a hundred and one things and not putting them in their rightful position.

i hope that is a decent analogy. 

because i definitely feel like i'm juggling lately....or like i have adhd in this moment. i've switched songs about 12 times already and am not even getting to the end of one before i start another......and that's for an entirely different blog.

anyway, i've got to get focused. on something. or everything. 

because i have just the same about of hours in the day as albert einstein did. and anne frank. and a trillion other people-well known or not-who have made a difference. 

so i can, too.

i can make an impact.

and i can manage my life and schedule.

one day at a time.