ready or not.

soooo. i'm pretty stinkin terrified.

i found a studio space. and i'm in love. but it's terrifying. every fiber of my being is so scared. what if i fall flat on my face? what if people don't come? what if there isn't really a need and it's all in my head.

what if. 

two seemingly non-threatening words but when you put them together, everything changes.

i know it's time. i know that i have been building my business hard for this exact moment. but i'm so scared. 
on top of it, i'm not sure it would change anything but it would make things a billion times more convenient. i have to believe that's more than worth it right there.

here's the thing. i can see myself there. i can see myself and my clients and their littles....and there's even a perfect little space for hypothetical henry. i can feel it with my whole heart which tells me that it isn't just a fluke. 

it's like home.

you know that saying--if your dreams don't scare you they're not big enough...well, let me tell you, i'm plenty scared but i'm plenty ready, too. my heart is ready. i'm ready. and everything about this just feels right. 

it's just logistics now. i can do it. i'm committed and hell, i've come bouncing back from a lot worse. but it's signing the paper that scares me. it's the idea that nothing is guaranteed that gets me. it's knowing there's no turning back at this point. 

but then, it's exciting. it could be life changing and the space is perfect. no more rescheduling. no more meetings at starbucks. my own little whimsical place. i cannot imagine that it wouldn't be amazing. in fact, i know it could take me even further than i am right now.

so here's the hard part. you just have to leap. it's that whole being braver thing that i have been talking about all year. it's knowing that either you'll fly or there will be a soft place to land. it's KNOWING that you can't fail.

i'm ready. this business is ready. and i'm scared but it's a good scared--the kind that motivates you....the kind that moves you.....i have everything i need.

all i have to do is jump.......

ready or not....here i come.